I was standing there alone, so alone that it felt awkward. "to make a roux......" I wished for an elf's ear at that point. My back started to ache so much that I wished I could just walk out of that exit just behind me to have my nicotine.

I did not.

I wanted to show to them how determined and passionate I am to learn.

Many years back, people asked, " what's your ambition?"
"I don't know." I said.

Deep inside, I am still struggling to find that flame waiting to be ignited. While I was standing there alone, I still kept my posture - hands at the back and I stood straight for almost an hour.

No one could help me. I felt vulnerable.

I just need them to look at me at the inside and not the outside. I'll give my all to let them see how much I want this.

If only they can understand.